13 May 2015

I don't wanna to grow up, it could still be simple


So after a stressful week and a gruelling all nighter, on Monday I handed in my final piece of graded work for my degree. I'm officially completely done. I just have my exhibition and graduation left and then i'm no longer a practicing artist but a professional one instead. Daunting thought, that's for sure.

I wrote to you all a couple weeks ago, I think (I can't remember if I had the courage to post it) about how scary it is to finally after 18 years of being in education to be on my own in the big, wide world. I've been offered a full time job with promotion at the place I currently work at which is great because i'm going to be earning a living but i'm scared i'm going to get comfortable and stuck there.

On the other side of the spectrum, being a freelance artist is going to be hard. I want to work for myself, I want to create work that is 100% from my own brain not created from a brief someone else designed. I want to do that all whilst talking with you and telling you all how it's going. I've never been one for keeping a diary, diaries are for secrets and I prefer sharing when something super exciting, or mind-blowingly crazy or unfortunately sad happens.

I think what i'm trying to say is, I don't want to grow up. Despite not enjoying my university experience, I want to live it over and over again. I was pushed into pursuing mediums of art that were motivating and enticing to me, effectively creating for myself. All the while writing on here in my spare time and that was amazing.

Things aren't going to change, my regular scheduling will resume with immediate effect (Wednesday's and Saturday's). I will also continue to create art and pursue a professional career but it's going to have to take a back seat for a while whilst I secure myself a steady living lifestyle out of education. That means, earning a living, paying taxes and all the other adult things that come along with that. It's kind of overwhelming but exciting at the same time.

Here's to the future, growing up and all the scary exciting things to come. Are there any changes in your life that you're unsure, overwhelmed or ecstatically happy about? I love hearing your stories too!

Love always,
Melissa


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